Life is a Journey, Not a Destiny!
Glory May Q. Aguilar
Living in this world is not that easy, it is such a battle wherein, we should be courageous enough to take the risk, to face all the challenges, and be ready with the consequences it will cause. It is full of ups and downs but is full of miracles. We must learn how to be happy in spite of all the problems we encounter, we should know how to learn from our experiences it’s either good or bad, and should know how to cherish things while we still have them. All we need to do is to make the most of it and live it to the fullest. We only have it once but if we live it right, once is enough.
As a young lady at 19, I sometimes don’t understand why life goes like this. There are many questions playing in my mind and many questions that make me a little bit puzzled. Why do we need to be happy when at the end we will be sad? Why do we need to meet people on our way and just part at the end? Why do we need to gain if just lose it? Why do we need to love if just hurt at the end? Those were only little of the many questions in my mind that I longed to be answered. I dreamed of having all but I realize that there must be more to life than having everything. I sometimes desired to win for those trials I’ve encountered, but I realize that in the name of life I desired not to be a winner but to be fulfilled.
There are many unbelievable things I wanted to happen in my life. Many problems I’ve encountered that make me think wisely. Knowing myself better is a little bit difficult for me. Many people don’t understand who really I am. I am sometimes misunderstood the way I talk, I act, and the way how I run my life. Many said I’m not nice, but what they don’t know is that sometimes I really have to show my negative side so that I can sort out who can accept me at my worst. In this matter life, it is not important for who you are but whether someone appreciates you for what you are. Inevitably, there are really people who don’t like me, people who do bad things to give me pain, and people who never understand my principles in life. But through it all, I struggle to prove them myself that I did not exist to please them and definitely because I can’t please everybody. Unmistakably, I desired not to please everybody but to fulfill those dreams I have, not only for me but most especially for my family.
When we talk about experiences, of course I have. Looking back to my high school life, you know what, I tend to be a loner, and others described me “weird”. I have only few friends and I chose people whom I talk to. I really don’t want to mingle with others that’s why they said I’m strict, and unapproachable. I won’t deny the fact that what they say about me is a little bit true, I admit. Those bitchy attitude and not nice things about me are natural in me. I am not “glorymayaguilar” no more if I don’t have those. Definitely, it made me me ‘coz one of our obligations in any lifetime is to be true to ourselves
Anyways, let’s now talk about my College life. Being a college student is not really easy for me. The adjustments, the new environment, the new challenges to face, and definitely the new world to live at. Renting a house where I can live away from my family makes my first semester in college miserable. I can’t sleep, can’t eat, and sometimes I’m out of my mind. Know what’s the hardest? Well, cooking my own food and washing my own laundry, haha… It’s really hard for me to do such things I’m not used to do, but in the other hand, I’m so happy because I never thought I can do those things all by my self. It’s an achievement for me. At least I learned to be a little bit independent.
At my second year, for me that was one of the memorable chapters of my college life. Got interested why? It is because on that year I have given the chance to know the friends whom I can say have been true to me. Friends who understand and love me for simply being me. They’re not only my friend but a brothers and sisters as well, brothers and sisters that care. Life is partly what we make it, and partly what it is made by the friends whom we choose. On the middle of that year, I feel so sad, so confused, and regretful a little bit to the course I have taken, and it comes to the point that I wanted to shift for another course. Honestly speaking, taking Education course is not really my choice it was my parents’ choice so I can’t help to feel disappointed. But I don’t want to fail their expectations on me, and besides I have started it already what I need to do is to continue at all cost and won’t fizzle out to make it till the end. I know I can do it. God is with me.
There is just one thing that happened in my second year I will never forget because it causes a little bit pain inside me. That time, we were all busy making our power point to be presented in our class. Suddenly, this classmate of mine, a guy says something on me. He teased me. It’s a joke for him I know because he is such a person who’s not taking things seriously, but what he said really hurt my feelings the fact that we’re not that close and I’m not feeling well that time. I never thought of taking revenge to him, know what I did? teary eyed I ran outside the classroom, to the gate, to our boarding house, there I cried so much to the extent that I can’t almost breath. On the morrow, I went to the school, we meet on the aisle, he asked sorry of what he did and from that moment on we started building our friendship. All things really work together for good, if it didn’t happen, I don’t know if he will be my friend.
Days past quickly, and I was on my third year in college. Well at first I find it difficult adjusting my time because my class would be from 5:30 – 9:30 p.m. During my first evening it was around 6:00 o’clock when I felt so hungry and sleepy that I wanted to go home, but the very thing that stopped me of doing so it is because I’m afraid to go home alone. I really felt nervous with our teacher because as what I have heard from her previous students she is a terror, insensitive, and inconsiderate teacher. Two hour class with her makes it almost whole night for me, the hands of the clock moves very slow. I can’t focus; I’m out of my mind. I’m thinking she’s going to eat me as though she is a monster. The ringing of the bell woke me up from my bad imagination. The time is over. “See you next meeting, goodbye class” she said. I can’t say a word, can’t move from my chair, and I can’t almost breath when she smiled at me before officially leaving the classroom. As she left, one of my classmates stood up and said “Oh my God! I can’t believe it, we are all still alive!” I never thought we’re feeling the same thing. If I have bad imaginations, well theirs are worst. After a few meeting I have I’ve found out that she’s such a friendly and approachable teacher, opposite to what we have heard from her previous students. And I admire her for being brilliant anyways, I learned much from her, and definitely she’s a very nice teacher.
It’s now the last chapter of my college life, I am now on my fourth year. Greater challenges to face, another battle to win. It’s been a while when I was just a first year but now I’m about to leave my Alma Mater, my teachers who molded me, and my friends whom I shared my life. It’s not that easy to think that after four years of being together, we will now part and there’s no assurance if we will be seeing each other again after graduation. But at least I have five more months left to do more bonding moments with them and make the most of it. I can’t say I won’t be happy without them but my life become happier the moment I knew them. They taught me how to be strong, not to give up, and how to accept failures. They have embraced my unlikable characters that made me me, as I likewise do to them. Life is such a collection of memories, and those memories are like star light…they live on forever.
I have found out the answer to some of my questions in the beginning of this life story of mine. We need to meet people on our way and part at the end not to cause us pain but rather to be able for us to learn such things we won’t be able to learn and realize just by ourselves. We need to know them and definitely learn from them. We won’t be living together with them for the rest of our lives but for sure the memories we had with them will surely last for a lifetime and worth cherished for. Truly, life isn’t matter of milestones but of moments.
“Be sure to cherish things while you still have them, not when they’re gone, for one of the hardest things to deal is regret. All the “could have beens” and “what ifs” could never bring them back. All of us have given time…for time is a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again. Life is a journey, not a destination. Make the most of it and live it to the fullest!! #